I deserved Goa.

The wait was of more than a decade. Million times a plan was made and more than a million times it was cancelled. But finally.. one day it happened. Okay I am not talking about something big. Its just that going GOA was a big huge achievement for all my friends and me.

We finally made it happen. It was a shame for me.. that 22 years in mumbai and i havent been to goa which is like a stone's throw away compared to all other states and cities.My cousins from all around india have come here and visited the place.

Specially after Dil Chahta hai the boom it gave goa tourism also affected us.Since them all of us have been wanting to go there.Goa is to India what Vegas is to US.

First of all Goa is a guy's paradise. I mean it was weird for a day after I came back to Mumbai to see fully clothed people.

It is contrasting by the morning and night and evening. You see 3 different colours of goa every phase of the day. Its nice bright and sunny in the morning. It welcomes the day with both hands open. The hustle bustle in the morning of the shacks the sweet sound of the waves. Its friendly by the morning.

As the day progresses you go back to relaxing mood. I never understood the fun in sun bathing besides the obsession of firangs to get the tanned skin I couldnt get how they could just lie down for hours and hours.

Well now i understood. Its the best thing to do in goa from 2 in the afternoon to 5 in the evening. Have fun in the beach.. float on the water.. sun bathe..go back.. float.. sun bathe. Your eyes become heavy , your body becomes loose and the sleep is prolly the deepest sound sleep in ages.

As it strikes 5.. the forts in GOA.. are the places to be. The sunsets are amazing. The beach view.. and so so so silent. Silence is indeed golden. The words just cant describe the peace ,you feel like on top of the world. All your tensions behind.. the breeze brushing your face.. you just dont want to talk there.. just sit , stop and stare at the beauty of the life , of the place, of your inner self.

The forts i mentioned are chapora( dil chahta hai fort) and aguada fort.

5-7 was the introspection period that i mentioned above. Eyes closed , smile on the face , and music in your ears and there you are.

To Do things in Goa

• Water Sports. It lasts just for half an hour but its amazing. Do all of them and dont forget to bargain.
• Visit the forts.Its not only about the beaches.
• Ride Activa 2 in the night. Trust me its amazing.
• Sun Bathe and Sun Screen and Sun Set.
• Cut off. No FB. No TV.
• Have Cheese Pakoda at Sam's (Baga Beach)
• Sleep on the beach atleast for a night.
• Night Life. (9Bar , Curlies) Trance Music.
• Make a move on atleast one Firang. :p

After 7 is what they say the day begins in Goa. Wine shops filled. Clubs and bars and firangs searching for what they call "party". Trance music at its best. People dancing their asses off. Indians looking to score some hot looking russian. Russians looking to score something else. 

As the day ends and the clock strikes 12. You sit on the beach look up at the sky and see the million stars shining bright which will never be a sight in mumbai ever. Those stars are so bright that every star seems a shooting shining star.

And the song on your ipod plays " Can we pretend that air planes in the night sky like shooting stars." and you say to yourself.. I could really use a wish right now.. :) (sighs!!).

Goa has nothing special. But still its very very special. Its different from all other tourist destinations in india. No historical monuments, no strings attached, no suicide points, no special fruit or food , no kahani . It is just Goa.


So in the end. I think I deserved a break. Hence I deserved GOA.

It's All About The Thrill Of The Chase.

The following 20 odd lines that I am going to rant about is nothing new. Everyone knows about it at the back of their mind or even consciously. We are all well acquainted with the basic human need of being needy all the time. No living being is satisfied with what they have. The phrase 'A bird in hand is better than 2 in the bush' no longer holds true because of the same human tendency which makes us go after the 2 in the bush and take the one in hand to be granted. Why does this happen? What is this insatiable urge that I am talking about? Why cant we ever be happy and satisfied and content with what we have? Ye dil kyu maange more?

Well, Its all about the THRILL of the CHASE.

Human beings like chase. They like to run after things that are out of their reach. There is a sense of accomplishment in that. There is a sense of victory and ego involved in it and plus the adage "You dont get what you want and you dont need what you get."

So coming back to the thrill of the chase. It's true. Till the time the thing is out of reach we go all guns to get it by hook or by crook. There is no stopping even if there is an option of getting something which is sure we still want to go after what is out of reach. You know its not possible. You know its immensely difficult but still you want to go at it till you get it.

Okay. Fine. You strive hard. You put your several years hard work behind it and finally by god's grace you do actually manage to get it. That's it. Game Over. Thrill of the chase is gone. It's fizzed out.
And as soon as the thrill is gone you realize the value of whatever you wanted is gone down too. You no longer want it. You no longer desire it. Something that was keeping you alive , it was your whole n sole aim to achieve it once you are done realizing the dream it feels the purpose is served and suddenly the thrill is gone.

The very same thing that you wanted now that you have it you no longer need it. You start taking it for granted once its yours and yours only. Because now there is no chasing it no adventure in it. And you again stumble upon something to chase for and the vicious circle of discontent continues.

Thrill of the chase is true in so many cases. Take live examples from your life itself.

Be it the girl/boy next door who's not into you at all and you start taking it as a challenge to woo them and impress them and finally get them to like you head over heels and thrill is gone.
Take them for granted. Go for greener pastures. Chase over. Game over. Relationship over.

Be it the company that you've been chasing for. You spend sleepless nights over it. Pray that you get the job and then there will be nothing else that you want from life.You finally get it. Game over. Thrill gone.
Go for greener pastures.


Be it the new phone/new bike/ a car you've been wanting it for ages. You wait eagerly. You strive hard to realize it. Its here. 1st day - love it . 2nd - like it. 3rd - enjoy it. 4th - bored of it.

Saturation comes everywhere. I got this forward from a friend which makes so much sense
" The irony of life is. The more you center your life around a person the more unattractive you become to that person."

It is so true and not only relating to people. But things. Every time you need some space. You need the excitement and thrill and enthusiasm to be alive and kicking. Anything in excess is bad and hence unattractive and enough because the thrill is not there.

So guys. Try and keep the thrill alive and try and value things even when they are yours because once they are gone its going to hurt and the harsh truth is it wont come back no matter how hard you chase for it.

Gratitude is the way of living. Adjust. Appreciate and Accept.

Prateek Of all Trades

Okay. That's it. Its time to get your head and heart at the right place and start contemplating on things. In fact done contemplating things , done with thinking about things. Its time do it and make it happen.

Why is there an always insatiable urge about something in life?

Why does it become so difficult to be satisfied and content and not having to worry about anything else?

I guess its just the nature of wanting to have a constant change.

Change from monotony , from routine , from people , from life.

As the old saying goes "change is the only constant" or its tongue in cheek version "Variety is the spice of life".It is this need for change that makes me do 100 things at the same time. May be to run from monotony or to keep me safe that if 99 things are falling apart i still got 1 thats working for me.

Boredom as i read somewhere is nothing but a byproduct of discontent or disinterest. And i think discontent gives birth to disinterest. But the point is when will this discontent end.

I somehow always wanted to delete this word from my brain " boredom". I refrain from using it because what i feel when people say " I am bored" it might be from the surroundings, from the work but it is more from themselves. Till the time you can keep yourself in your good company you dont want anything else to amuse you.However the boredom bug has hit me more than often recently which is what irritates me. I shouldnt be having time to get bored. There are million things to do and i come up with " I am bored".

Just need a kick start, eye opener a push an inspiration to get things going.

There starts the other problem.

After 3 idiots i've heard this philosophy " Do what you actually want to do. Take up things where your actual talent lies".Now who  knows where and what my actual TALENT is.

"Jack of all trades , master of none." This phrase is like tailor made for me.

But i find this problem with most of my friends. Nobody actually knows what they want. We either quote or do or say what the other half of the world is saying and jump in the same boat and when we are on it we try finding life jackets to swim safely to some other territory before it drowns you and takes you down.

I always use to wish. If only I had this one talent , one area in which i could be a master at , there would have been so much less confusion , life would have been so simple, I would know exactly what I want to do and that would have been my ultimate goal.I just cant get my head straight right now to think what I want right now. And even if after putting in all the rationalities , looking deep down inside , being all practical I come up with something that I want , there is this fear that what if i get what i want but this isnt what I need. Its like today I decide that I wanna be a pilot and tomorrow i realize that I am afraid of heights.

So the shit's fu**** up!!

But it goes the other way round too when the rolling stone says

You can't always get what you want

And if you try sometime you find

You get what you need

My dad keeps on saying " Love what you do, do what you love"

I reply him by saying that this is twisted. It should've been " Do what you love and you will obviously love what you do."

With all this in my head , getting fed up at sometimes I just find the easy way out and say " Chuck it, we'll see what happens."But then the sand is slipping out of the hand. The clock is ticking.If not now then when? 

So its time to prioritize things, make some hard decisions, get things back on track, but before all that find the right track.

Words that made me smile yesterday from Grey's Anatomy which totally applies to the situation right now

"Boundaries don't keep other people out, they fence you in. Life is messy. That's how we're made. So you can waste your life drawing lines or you can live your life crossing them. But there are some lines that are way too dangerous to cross. Here's what I know, if you're willing to take the chance, the view from the other side is spectacular."

So have faith and wait for the view and indeed its going to be SPECTACULAR!!!

Signing off.

Mumbai-Delhi-Mumbai

Yes, Back. This was like a big lull on TONIGHT'S ENTERTAINMENT. It was because i have been having my own share of entertainment since the last 2 months when I was in Delhi.
There was drama , tragedy , comedy , action , suspense , emotional and a happy ending.
I was out of the blog arena because of the 2 month training that I had for the new job.
A new start , new people , new city , new experience and it was all worth it.


It wasnt just Mumbai-Delhi-Mumbai. It was like.. done with Mumbai I need a change.. Then comes Delhi..1 month in Delhi.. its the best city.. one more month in Delhi.. Mumbai I want to go back .. nothing like it.

The Secret works in mysterious ways. Before i got a chance to go Delhi i used to cry and wonder when will i get to see the Capital. I'd seen it in movies which kinda increased my curiosity to visit the city.
Rang De Basanti
Dilli - 6
Dev-D
Oye Lucky
Dil Dosti..

each movie had delhi in it which excited me. I'd heard some of the delhi lingo from here and there. The way they add "yo" after every word..
kariyo
leliyo
maar liyo
dekh liyo..

So thanks to the new job I finally get to go check out delhi not for 7 days but for 7 weeks. And how it was!

It was awesome. Delhi was amazing change from Mumbai.
Delhi and Mumbai are like 2 sides of the same coin. So same but so different. Both have their own striking characteristics. 2 different bodies but the same soul types.

Delhi is a lot like extremes.
Extreme heat.. Extreme cold..Extreme in transport from stupid bicycle rickshaws to Metro...
Extreme in crowd from snobbish shopkeepers and auto-drivers to hep smart hot saket and gk1 crowd.
Extreme in places from the historic monuments to huge shopping malls to parathe wali gully to chandni chowk to  connought place.
You get to see a city within a city.
Delhi is actually more diverse than what mumbai is and it is kind of easier to explore things in delhi if you know how and when and where to travel but i always feel crowd makes the place. You dont see a friendly face in Delhi's crowd. Everyone is just oblivious to whats happening around.
Mumbai no matter how much people are frustrated with their lives , the trains , the buses , the weather... you always get some to chat up with.. someone to help you in case you are lost and its easier to trust them.

Metros are like the highlight of Delhi. They are what sets the city apart. So simplified. So much fun to travel. Amazing cleanliness. Super speed amazing view. The only thing missing in any other place in India.


One week before i was leaving for Delhi. I got to hear lot of things about the big city.
People are crooks. Its unsafe. Girls are crazy. Guys are filthy rich. Foodie Paradise. Shopping Hub.
Some of the above things were true some just hyped.

Like convincing the auto driver to take you exactly where you want to is an uphill task in itself.
Stop the rick. Ask him if he wants to go. Then tell him to take certain amount of people. Then take certain amount of money. And trust me the drivers drive rick as if they have their hands on a limousine wheel. I dont know how they earn their living by being such in your face jerks.

But every city at the end has its charm which pull you towards it. So Delhi was fun. For whatever time it was I enjoyed. But it made me feel more for Mumbai, miss Mumbai and realized that there is no place like it.

Somethings that I'd dearly miss about my 2 month stint at Delhi

Delhi office
Iskcon Temple
Punjabi Food
Orange Candy
Metro Trains
Divine Home
Sona Sweets
VaishnoDevi
Agra
Late Night Talk and Late Night Walk
Pictionary and Mafia
Birthday cakes
Satyam Theatre
1.40 AM
and at the end The Nama-Cool Nau

The name is very recent though. I made some amazing friends.
I always had this fear before i left for Delhi. That what if people with me wont be fun. What if I dont gel with them. I had everything ready. 3 Books , I-Touch filled with songs and movies enought to last me a month.
But neither did i read a single page nor did I see a single movie. There just wasnt time. We enjoyed each other's company so much that it was just surprising for 9 bunch of strangers.

Priyank - This guy had the most amazing and humorous stories to tell. I guess it was his stories that broke the ice in the Rajdhani Express. We went nuts laughing. Although he's got a more serious side to himself to some set notions some beliefs but then who doesnt. When he's on a roll its ROFL. I hope you know priyank what this means.. :P

Paresh - First Impression. Total Nerd. Last Impression the most amazing guy to be with and opposite of what any nerd would be. He's helpful. He's creative. He's at times childlishly funny ( burps and farts) and at times irritatingly mature and a perfectionist.  We still remember the way you cut vegetables and who can forget the dancing skills man. Coding master the entire delhi batch was at your feet to help them through their code.

Pawan - Laid Back. Relaxed. Adventurous. Entourage buddy. Amazing One liners. Go-to guy of our group. Always the last one to get up. He's the one who planned or un-planned all the amazing and memorable trips that we went to. I found you a bit diplomatic at times and a bit in your face at times so good. The Delhi Guide. As i told you before we left for Mumbai. Had it not been for you we would have been sitting in our rooms watching TV every weekend.

Anish - Nobody Believes me. But you are a lot like me. Hassle free. No cribbing. Chilled out. Optimist. Very Adjustable and very very helpful. I still remember when everyone was down and out in Vaishnodevi you were still the one running to get a bus so that we can reach next day on time. Always the first one to be ready. Joyful. Talks less. Smiles a lot. But when spoken to can talk on any damn topic in the world. Mr. Academic Allrounder. you share this tag with Paresh though.

Swettta - She came a lil late. But then again it took her little time to mix and mingle and before you know she was one of us. Although at times she used to be on her own talking on the phone or too too engrossed in her computer. But then she was a silent killer. Spoke less but whenever she did it was atom bomb. We used to be in splits. Very very sweet and too cute specially when it came to singing your fav song. Haseena Maan Jayegi. Swetttaa.. do remember " Top Of the World" and  " Life is Smoooooth" ya fir " Purrrfect" bhi chalegaa..

Karan - Ranga. Rangeela. Rangi. I shall not go further into this. He was our punching bag. Frustrated with work. Chal aaj Ranga ko maarte hai and all he used to do is Shout!!.. hahaha.. He used to scare us with the voice that he thought was just perfect for the next Indian Idol. But that is where his sense of humor came from. We used to enjoy listening to him and making a mess of the lyrics. Pure jain and not once did he sacrifice on that which I kind of hated at the start but then have to appreciate the will power. The most amazing part was Mansi-Papa and " Haa Su Kare Chhe"

Dattaram - He was no more Dattaram. For everyone in and around him he was now called Data. Another coding guru. I used to like coding with him when he taught me it went straight in. Very simple and sweet. Again used to be in his own world and his phone. From day1 he had his sleeping bed fixed and nobody was allowed to sleep there. Dattaram Paresh and Pawan were like the NON VEG gang.


Gagandeep - The only Delhi guy who gelled so well and so soon. He used to be our Delhi food and travel guide. Very Helpful and patient with all the phone calls and inquiries that we bothered him with. He gave me the name E2.. lol excited electron. Funny and Outgoing. Got to hear some real time Delhi slangs from him.

Yogita - The YO!!. She's awesome. She is just too much fun. Bollywood connection made us click. Both of us being big time bollywood fans. Singing songs together. Knowing exactly what situation reminds us of which movie. She's too caring, sweet and pretty. Loved clicking pictures talking for hours. Cracking the silliest of jokes. And how can i forget Pasta and Mayo Toast and Grilled Sandwiches. They were just yum. Anish Yogita and I used to be this Marwari Gang. People infulence you a lot.I am sure you've had a decent influence on me and all positive. I loved the way we used to communicate what eye contact skills I was amazed at myself that i posessed such skills before.. :P It was lovely knowing you.

I've been lucky on this part. Wherever I go I always end up making awesome friends. I keep meeting some like minded people some different people but all of whom I can hang out with.
Now 9 Different people and 9 Different personalities. There are bound to be fights and tiffs and coldwars and misunderstanding. When you have to see the same person everyday for 24 hrs either you may start hating them too much or start loving them too much.
But luckily it was the latter that happened.

Engineering Roller Coaster. 4 years in 40 lines for 40 marks.

So.. It's finally here. The day i've been waiting for from the moment I got in. So before its all over dead and gone I just want to take some time to reminisce about the 4 year long journey called Engineering.

What a roller coaster ride it has been these 4 years!! It went from curiosity to excitement to fear to depression to lull to carefree to enjoyment to ecstatic and finally ending on a high note.

Although the roller coaster track was  full of ups and downs it was an enjoyable yet boring , tasking yet fruitful, full of hatred yet full of memories and then you say those words which you never thought mid way through this journey that you will be saying this at the end of the four years. " I cant believe I will actually miss this college"

When this roller coaster started in June 2006 its finally giving up its momentum and coming to an halt in June 2010.

Let me explain you the emotions that i mentioned above while i was on the roller coaster called computer engineering.

Curiosity : What will the college be like? Compulsory attendance? Crowd? oh yaa Teaching as well?

Excitement : First day of college. Ragging Happens? Infrastructure is sick man! Oh I love this college.

Fear : Shit first semester. Whats gona happen. I havent even started. How are these so called mumbai university papers like?

Depression: There i got my first ever KT. KT ye kya hota hai ? I am officially allowed to keep term.(ATKT) 90% in 10th 85% in 12th and i fail for the first ever time.

Lull : This is just not meant to be. Where am i stuck? This is not what i am supposed to be doing. I hate this college.

Carefree : Seriously? I dont give a fu**. Its all bull shit. I'll see what happens. Fu** it.

Enjoyment : All clear dude.. all Clear.. yes yes yes!! Orgasmic..lol..

Ecstatic : Guess who just got placed. Guess guess..!! I have an OFFER.

I always had this infatuation with computers. I wanted to learn about them. Making softwares sounded so cool and slick before you actually know how they are made. 14 is too early an age to decide what you want to take up as a career. But  may be it was my prejudiced and judgemental nature that made me decide that after winning a powerpoint presentation interschool competition I am apt for Computer Engineering. May be it was just meant to be. So here i am. Bachelor of Engineering in Computer Science. Sounds Good.

Rajiv Gandhi Institute of Technology was not the college that I would have wanted to do engineering from. But after miserable CET marks i would have accepted anything that comes my way. So when i saw my name on the last list I jumped with joy. I was finally going to do computer engineering.

First Year : Complete transformation from the hep south mumbai Jai Hind College it was time to attend Suburban Rajiv Gandhi Institute of Technology. I'd heard that girls are in each and every field but engineering. I got to know that after coming here. The girl - guy ratio was abysmal. First year in any college goes more in socializing than in studying. Getting to know people making your own hang out group or entourage. Hitting on somewhat good looking girls cos you know the couple of girls who are actually very good looking will already have 10 guys lined up after them. Bunking lectures was fun in first year and obtained some kind of thrill. Giving proxies working for college festivals building a rapport with seniors. The freshers party. The dos and donts of the college. You run for tuitions and crash courses.

Second Year : You feel like you own the college now. You are officially a senior. You want to rag. You want to catch the first year girls YOUNG. In first year we liked the 4th year crowd. In second year we start liking the FE crowd. Things like." Apne batch mai aisi ladkiya kyu nahi thi" become a common hearing.

At the same time the good friends in first year become best friends by the end of second year and lovers eventually. This is when the fun starts. The gossip mongers come into action and the emotional atyachaar begins.The back biting. The groupism. Immature.

Third Year: This is the year when you actually start studying a bit. Because the excitement is gone. The fun is over. You know longer want to dress traditionally on tradition day and no longer give roses and chocolates to the girl who has another 100 guys giving her the same red rose. You get yourself in random college committees just for the sake of getting certificates.You no more want to be in the professors bad books. All you want is 60%. But also this is the time when I made great friends. I got to learn about people. I got to know people. I realized who I am supposed to be with and who I want to keep just as an acquaintance. You become closer to a few pals. You draw yourself away from some.

Fourth Year : Everything is Happening. Final Year. CAT. GRE. PLACEMENTS. Life is on fast track and before you realize your four years are over. and suddenly it strikes you dont want them to get over. You still want to sit on the last bench and talk about totally random stuff , gossip and curse the professor while she is clearing her throat.You still want to sing songs in atif aslam voice and people start howling and throwing chalks at you. You still want to doodle on your last page of your book and fill it up with your signature. You still want to give proxies and bunk lectures and xerox assignments. You still want to talk about the entire world. You still want to sit on the last bench of the classroom with that particular person even though you know first 5 benches are totally empty. As Kapse used to call " Balcony People I know you dont want to study". You again want to dress up for traditional day , formal day , graduation day thinking that you might not get to see them again and click thousands of pictures for memories. You know longer care about tuitions and crash courses.

Regrets Guilts Mistakes Disappointments and Sarcasm aside, you learn a lot. You remember some professors who made stuff easy for you. You hate those professors who made life hell for you. You learn people. You learn Life.

I would like to thank so many people for making my journey worthwhile. I will take back some brilliant moments I've spent in those birthday parties that we've thrown for each other. Giving and receiving gifts.The innumerable times that we've gone to CCD or INFINITY enough to know the menu card by heart.

Tanya - I'll miss " Malu, You know what!!!" I'll miss the last bench gossip. I'll miss calling you every single day. I'll miss chocolate fantasy. I'll miss jini dosa. I'll miss you being ten times more excited than me for my birthday. I'll miss the photo sessions with you. I'll miss the parties we've had at your place. I'll miss Bombay To Bangkok and I'll miss Loins Of Punjab and Ugly aur Pagli and Chandni Chowk to China and not to forget LOVE SEX AUR DHOKA. I'll miss talking about relationships and break ups and louve on the phone over and over again. I'll miss your confusion you dilemma. I'll miss your never told anyone secrets.I'll miss the pune expressway ride. They say biggest of the fights happen In the closest friendships. I love the fact that we've never fought and yet the best of friends. I'll miss YOU.

Aman - I'll miss the bike ride. I'll miss " mere pass sirf bees hi rupye hai". I'll miss.. arre arre arre.

I'll miss " voh kya hot hai. I'll miss after college table tennis. I'll miss you in FUN GROUP. hahaa

Yash - I'll miss laughing like crazy. I'll miss the humour. I'll miss the deep conversations.I'll miss starting a business with you. Your investment My profit.

KP - I'll miss YO! I'll miss red swift. I'll miss hukka. I'll miss HIP HOP.

Nigah - I'll miss fashion shows. I'll miss zodiac. I'll miss HOLI. I'll miss dancing with you.

Jenis - I'll miss the sweet voice. I'll miss the innocent face.

Ankit - I'll miss that you always took the pain to come all the way from town to hang out with us. I'll miss the only KKR buddy and the only vegetarian buddy. I'll miss NEETI.. haha

Neeti - I'll miss the long phone talks that we used to have in the initial sems. I'll miss that you were the first person i would call when in doubts. I'll miss never sharing secrets. I'll miss you giving me a ride when its raining.I'll miss teaching you how to make anish and aman PAY. haha.

Amod - I'll miss THAT-1. I'll miss THAT-2... I'll miss FANTASTIC 4. haha

Sharad - I'll miss Sanjay Dutt and Shah Rukh Khan.

Angad - I'll miss the source of entertainment. I'll miss the honda city. I'll miss the driving and I'll miss that my girlfriend left me. haha

Parth - I'll miss the jokes on Tanya.

Sagar - I'll miss your notes. The smart way to study. The short cuts. The midterms. The vivas. Contact Sagar.

Anish - I'll miss "chal naa..rukk naa.. tujhe ghaai kya hai.." Fun group title inventor.

Mithun - I'll miss "lets party man" I'll miss shot ho raha hai. I'll miss lets rock. I'll miss ZOADIES.

Ashwajeet Nitin Abhilash Jignesh Harshul Bhavesh Rajiv.

There are so so so many other friends that i would love to thank. Everyone was special. Everyone made me smile.

The few other things that I would like to thank are

1. My 15 year old bike - It made commuting fun. I've never enjoyed travelling so much. 15 mins and I was there and it never betrayed. Not in the scorching heat not in the thunderous shower. Always there.

2. My Cellphone -  I got this in the start of my engineering and since then has been very important and special I dont feel like giving it away for a new one.

3. The Ipods - Yes the two I pods that i've lost. One of them gifted by my friends. Music was the only thing with me when everything else was falling apart.

4.Bag - It felt empty when i started coming to college without my bag and with just one book in the final year.Somehow get emotinally attached to these.

5.Lexi Pen - I've never changed this pen even once in 4 years. Blue Lexi Pen made me score the much needed 70's in my papers.

6. Mom and Dad - Thank you.

7.RAJIV GANDHI INSTITUTE OF TECHNOLOGY - After all this college gave me a direction. A new path. It is ending for a new beginning. It gave me work. It gave me knowledge. It has taken from me 4 years and given me something about it that i'll never forget these years. It was MEANT TO BE. It all starts from where it is ending.

To end this longest post ever I just wanted to collect as much as  I can of my 4 years in 40 lines. Thanking is a part of me. I believe in gratitude. I believe never regret anything that made you smile. I just wish all the luck love happiness to everyone and I hope when i see them 10 years down the line on the same street It would not take me a second before i go and hug them. Everyone's starting a new thing. A new life. A new day. A new start. Starting from scratch. Starting from where they left off. So its kinda nostalgic. If you dont get attached in 4 years you are a robot. So its emotional. Its frightening to imagine things no longer being the same.

Bye. Bye. Have a Great Life. :)

Ouch.. That Hurt !

Criticism always hurts. There is no such thing called positive or negative criticism. When it comes it comes with an arrow to pierce right through. No matter how calm or composed you are its gona prick you at some moment. Who likes brick bats anyway? Everyone likes to be praised and appreciated and talked about in good words.

Now take me for example..

I've been this guy who's never had a fight with anyone. Not even with my closest buddies. Its just in my nature to keep people happy. Take them the way they are. I dont like to crib about people everyone has their own nature. I am being called diplomatic or manipulative for that but it doesnt change me. I am a people's person and I like it. I like it when i have a thousand people to greet and shake hands with when I enter my college.

But then all of a sudden I had this really interesting conversation which ended up as an argument with one of my oldest and closest friends and got to know so many flaws about me which i thought i never had.

This is the thing about friends.. "A good friend will tell you whats the matter with you in a minute. He may not seem to be such a good friend after telling."

another thing about friends " Never explain - your friends dont need it and your enemies wont believe you anyway"

Thats the problem with criticism. Till the time he/she tells you the sugar coated words he's ur best friend but one bad thing about you and he's no more your best friend.

So criticism is often very difficult to take in your stride.

Specially for someone who's never had it before and specially from someone who's never ever told anything against you.

It hurts. It makes you think. It disturbs you like crazy. But again my favorite quote comes handy in stress situations "Whatever happens, happens for a reason"

So may be this might strengthen the bond or it might make me look at myself and think where am i going wrong but it was a good change. You need to hear something like that to do some introspection but not very often.

So criticize all you want but make sure you dont hurt the person. Tell him whats wrong but give him a reason why is it wrong. Tell him the bad points but also tell him why he is good enough to have a discussion. After all you are harsh and you are sensitive both with people you care the most. So its never too late to criticize and its never too late to change for GOOD.