March 5, 2011. Saturday.
The day before was a tiring day at work. Intensive finance session and also hardcore cricket league going on. I was tired. I came home had dinner and slept from 11 pm till it struck 12 and phone started ringing. Birthdays are the only days when you actually feel blessed. People wishing for you. People happy for you. For once in 365 days you are the star. March 5 , 2011 was one of the 23 such days I've had till now.
After enjoying a good long drive. I came back home around 3 am. I just couldn't get my self to sleep for an hour when it suddenly struck me "**ck" m 23!.
I again calculated to reconfirm 2011-1988=23. Confirm. I am 23.
Hmm, so its 23. 23 years and excited to be alive. Some times i feel its happening too fast. Sometimes i want things to slow down. Stop and stare at what's what and what's not. So many things done , and so many still undone.
In the next 5 years I want to be able to say been there and done that.
I want to be able to say I know it all.
I want to be able to say life cannot be more perfect that this.
It's been good well spent 2 decades.
I have either got what i wanted and if not I have got more than what i wanted. But still there is a sense of somethings amiss. May be its the final few pieces of the huge jigsaw puzzle of life. May be then I'll get to see the bigger picture. 23 years have gone looking at the bigger picture. Concentrating on what's in it for the future. What's in it for later. I want to be able to say here I am and I love it. For once no second doubts , crystal clear thoughts, knowing what you are what you can be so that there be no regrets no demands no expectations just LIFE.
May be all this is an Utopian state of life and mind but i feel it can happen. I feel there will be a time when I'll be overwhelmed with positivity. There will be a time when it will take mammoth of an effort to wipe the smile off my face. I may be sounding like a 40 year old female who's freaking out that she's turned 40 or like a 60 year old who's on his death bed.
But I am 23 and it's my birthday and the exciting part starts now and I dont want to still say all this 40 years from now.
We all say life is short. Life is fast. And in fact it is. You blink and you are 23 and blink again you are 60 and trust me age is not just " a number". So I dont want to wait but i want to be a big huge leap ahead so that when things come my way and I am the receiving end I want to be able to say bring it ON!!!.
For now. I just look up close my eyes and say Thank You. God.
O btw God replies picture abhi baaki hai mere dost..!! :P
The day before was a tiring day at work. Intensive finance session and also hardcore cricket league going on. I was tired. I came home had dinner and slept from 11 pm till it struck 12 and phone started ringing. Birthdays are the only days when you actually feel blessed. People wishing for you. People happy for you. For once in 365 days you are the star. March 5 , 2011 was one of the 23 such days I've had till now.
After enjoying a good long drive. I came back home around 3 am. I just couldn't get my self to sleep for an hour when it suddenly struck me "**ck" m 23!.
I again calculated to reconfirm 2011-1988=23. Confirm. I am 23.
Hmm, so its 23. 23 years and excited to be alive. Some times i feel its happening too fast. Sometimes i want things to slow down. Stop and stare at what's what and what's not. So many things done , and so many still undone.
In the next 5 years I want to be able to say been there and done that.
I want to be able to say I know it all.
I want to be able to say life cannot be more perfect that this.
It's been good well spent 2 decades.
I have either got what i wanted and if not I have got more than what i wanted. But still there is a sense of somethings amiss. May be its the final few pieces of the huge jigsaw puzzle of life. May be then I'll get to see the bigger picture. 23 years have gone looking at the bigger picture. Concentrating on what's in it for the future. What's in it for later. I want to be able to say here I am and I love it. For once no second doubts , crystal clear thoughts, knowing what you are what you can be so that there be no regrets no demands no expectations just LIFE.
May be all this is an Utopian state of life and mind but i feel it can happen. I feel there will be a time when I'll be overwhelmed with positivity. There will be a time when it will take mammoth of an effort to wipe the smile off my face. I may be sounding like a 40 year old female who's freaking out that she's turned 40 or like a 60 year old who's on his death bed.
But I am 23 and it's my birthday and the exciting part starts now and I dont want to still say all this 40 years from now.
We all say life is short. Life is fast. And in fact it is. You blink and you are 23 and blink again you are 60 and trust me age is not just " a number". So I dont want to wait but i want to be a big huge leap ahead so that when things come my way and I am the receiving end I want to be able to say bring it ON!!!.
For now. I just look up close my eyes and say Thank You. God.
O btw God replies picture abhi baaki hai mere dost..!! :P
