Engineering Roller Coaster. 4 years in 40 lines for 40 marks.

So.. It's finally here. The day i've been waiting for from the moment I got in. So before its all over dead and gone I just want to take some time to reminisce about the 4 year long journey called Engineering.

What a roller coaster ride it has been these 4 years!! It went from curiosity to excitement to fear to depression to lull to carefree to enjoyment to ecstatic and finally ending on a high note.

Although the roller coaster track was  full of ups and downs it was an enjoyable yet boring , tasking yet fruitful, full of hatred yet full of memories and then you say those words which you never thought mid way through this journey that you will be saying this at the end of the four years. " I cant believe I will actually miss this college"

When this roller coaster started in June 2006 its finally giving up its momentum and coming to an halt in June 2010.

Let me explain you the emotions that i mentioned above while i was on the roller coaster called computer engineering.

Curiosity : What will the college be like? Compulsory attendance? Crowd? oh yaa Teaching as well?

Excitement : First day of college. Ragging Happens? Infrastructure is sick man! Oh I love this college.

Fear : Shit first semester. Whats gona happen. I havent even started. How are these so called mumbai university papers like?

Depression: There i got my first ever KT. KT ye kya hota hai ? I am officially allowed to keep term.(ATKT) 90% in 10th 85% in 12th and i fail for the first ever time.

Lull : This is just not meant to be. Where am i stuck? This is not what i am supposed to be doing. I hate this college.

Carefree : Seriously? I dont give a fu**. Its all bull shit. I'll see what happens. Fu** it.

Enjoyment : All clear dude.. all Clear.. yes yes yes!! Orgasmic..lol..

Ecstatic : Guess who just got placed. Guess guess..!! I have an OFFER.

I always had this infatuation with computers. I wanted to learn about them. Making softwares sounded so cool and slick before you actually know how they are made. 14 is too early an age to decide what you want to take up as a career. But  may be it was my prejudiced and judgemental nature that made me decide that after winning a powerpoint presentation interschool competition I am apt for Computer Engineering. May be it was just meant to be. So here i am. Bachelor of Engineering in Computer Science. Sounds Good.

Rajiv Gandhi Institute of Technology was not the college that I would have wanted to do engineering from. But after miserable CET marks i would have accepted anything that comes my way. So when i saw my name on the last list I jumped with joy. I was finally going to do computer engineering.

First Year : Complete transformation from the hep south mumbai Jai Hind College it was time to attend Suburban Rajiv Gandhi Institute of Technology. I'd heard that girls are in each and every field but engineering. I got to know that after coming here. The girl - guy ratio was abysmal. First year in any college goes more in socializing than in studying. Getting to know people making your own hang out group or entourage. Hitting on somewhat good looking girls cos you know the couple of girls who are actually very good looking will already have 10 guys lined up after them. Bunking lectures was fun in first year and obtained some kind of thrill. Giving proxies working for college festivals building a rapport with seniors. The freshers party. The dos and donts of the college. You run for tuitions and crash courses.

Second Year : You feel like you own the college now. You are officially a senior. You want to rag. You want to catch the first year girls YOUNG. In first year we liked the 4th year crowd. In second year we start liking the FE crowd. Things like." Apne batch mai aisi ladkiya kyu nahi thi" become a common hearing.

At the same time the good friends in first year become best friends by the end of second year and lovers eventually. This is when the fun starts. The gossip mongers come into action and the emotional atyachaar begins.The back biting. The groupism. Immature.

Third Year: This is the year when you actually start studying a bit. Because the excitement is gone. The fun is over. You know longer want to dress traditionally on tradition day and no longer give roses and chocolates to the girl who has another 100 guys giving her the same red rose. You get yourself in random college committees just for the sake of getting certificates.You no more want to be in the professors bad books. All you want is 60%. But also this is the time when I made great friends. I got to learn about people. I got to know people. I realized who I am supposed to be with and who I want to keep just as an acquaintance. You become closer to a few pals. You draw yourself away from some.

Fourth Year : Everything is Happening. Final Year. CAT. GRE. PLACEMENTS. Life is on fast track and before you realize your four years are over. and suddenly it strikes you dont want them to get over. You still want to sit on the last bench and talk about totally random stuff , gossip and curse the professor while she is clearing her throat.You still want to sing songs in atif aslam voice and people start howling and throwing chalks at you. You still want to doodle on your last page of your book and fill it up with your signature. You still want to give proxies and bunk lectures and xerox assignments. You still want to talk about the entire world. You still want to sit on the last bench of the classroom with that particular person even though you know first 5 benches are totally empty. As Kapse used to call " Balcony People I know you dont want to study". You again want to dress up for traditional day , formal day , graduation day thinking that you might not get to see them again and click thousands of pictures for memories. You know longer care about tuitions and crash courses.

Regrets Guilts Mistakes Disappointments and Sarcasm aside, you learn a lot. You remember some professors who made stuff easy for you. You hate those professors who made life hell for you. You learn people. You learn Life.

I would like to thank so many people for making my journey worthwhile. I will take back some brilliant moments I've spent in those birthday parties that we've thrown for each other. Giving and receiving gifts.The innumerable times that we've gone to CCD or INFINITY enough to know the menu card by heart.

Tanya - I'll miss " Malu, You know what!!!" I'll miss the last bench gossip. I'll miss calling you every single day. I'll miss chocolate fantasy. I'll miss jini dosa. I'll miss you being ten times more excited than me for my birthday. I'll miss the photo sessions with you. I'll miss the parties we've had at your place. I'll miss Bombay To Bangkok and I'll miss Loins Of Punjab and Ugly aur Pagli and Chandni Chowk to China and not to forget LOVE SEX AUR DHOKA. I'll miss talking about relationships and break ups and louve on the phone over and over again. I'll miss your confusion you dilemma. I'll miss your never told anyone secrets.I'll miss the pune expressway ride. They say biggest of the fights happen In the closest friendships. I love the fact that we've never fought and yet the best of friends. I'll miss YOU.

Aman - I'll miss the bike ride. I'll miss " mere pass sirf bees hi rupye hai". I'll miss.. arre arre arre.

I'll miss " voh kya hot hai. I'll miss after college table tennis. I'll miss you in FUN GROUP. hahaa

Yash - I'll miss laughing like crazy. I'll miss the humour. I'll miss the deep conversations.I'll miss starting a business with you. Your investment My profit.

KP - I'll miss YO! I'll miss red swift. I'll miss hukka. I'll miss HIP HOP.

Nigah - I'll miss fashion shows. I'll miss zodiac. I'll miss HOLI. I'll miss dancing with you.

Jenis - I'll miss the sweet voice. I'll miss the innocent face.

Ankit - I'll miss that you always took the pain to come all the way from town to hang out with us. I'll miss the only KKR buddy and the only vegetarian buddy. I'll miss NEETI.. haha

Neeti - I'll miss the long phone talks that we used to have in the initial sems. I'll miss that you were the first person i would call when in doubts. I'll miss never sharing secrets. I'll miss you giving me a ride when its raining.I'll miss teaching you how to make anish and aman PAY. haha.

Amod - I'll miss THAT-1. I'll miss THAT-2... I'll miss FANTASTIC 4. haha

Sharad - I'll miss Sanjay Dutt and Shah Rukh Khan.

Angad - I'll miss the source of entertainment. I'll miss the honda city. I'll miss the driving and I'll miss that my girlfriend left me. haha

Parth - I'll miss the jokes on Tanya.

Sagar - I'll miss your notes. The smart way to study. The short cuts. The midterms. The vivas. Contact Sagar.

Anish - I'll miss "chal naa..rukk naa.. tujhe ghaai kya hai.." Fun group title inventor.

Mithun - I'll miss "lets party man" I'll miss shot ho raha hai. I'll miss lets rock. I'll miss ZOADIES.

Ashwajeet Nitin Abhilash Jignesh Harshul Bhavesh Rajiv.

There are so so so many other friends that i would love to thank. Everyone was special. Everyone made me smile.

The few other things that I would like to thank are

1. My 15 year old bike - It made commuting fun. I've never enjoyed travelling so much. 15 mins and I was there and it never betrayed. Not in the scorching heat not in the thunderous shower. Always there.

2. My Cellphone -  I got this in the start of my engineering and since then has been very important and special I dont feel like giving it away for a new one.

3. The Ipods - Yes the two I pods that i've lost. One of them gifted by my friends. Music was the only thing with me when everything else was falling apart.

4.Bag - It felt empty when i started coming to college without my bag and with just one book in the final year.Somehow get emotinally attached to these.

5.Lexi Pen - I've never changed this pen even once in 4 years. Blue Lexi Pen made me score the much needed 70's in my papers.

6. Mom and Dad - Thank you.

7.RAJIV GANDHI INSTITUTE OF TECHNOLOGY - After all this college gave me a direction. A new path. It is ending for a new beginning. It gave me work. It gave me knowledge. It has taken from me 4 years and given me something about it that i'll never forget these years. It was MEANT TO BE. It all starts from where it is ending.

To end this longest post ever I just wanted to collect as much as  I can of my 4 years in 40 lines. Thanking is a part of me. I believe in gratitude. I believe never regret anything that made you smile. I just wish all the luck love happiness to everyone and I hope when i see them 10 years down the line on the same street It would not take me a second before i go and hug them. Everyone's starting a new thing. A new life. A new day. A new start. Starting from scratch. Starting from where they left off. So its kinda nostalgic. If you dont get attached in 4 years you are a robot. So its emotional. Its frightening to imagine things no longer being the same.

Bye. Bye. Have a Great Life. :)

Ouch.. That Hurt !

Criticism always hurts. There is no such thing called positive or negative criticism. When it comes it comes with an arrow to pierce right through. No matter how calm or composed you are its gona prick you at some moment. Who likes brick bats anyway? Everyone likes to be praised and appreciated and talked about in good words.

Now take me for example..

I've been this guy who's never had a fight with anyone. Not even with my closest buddies. Its just in my nature to keep people happy. Take them the way they are. I dont like to crib about people everyone has their own nature. I am being called diplomatic or manipulative for that but it doesnt change me. I am a people's person and I like it. I like it when i have a thousand people to greet and shake hands with when I enter my college.

But then all of a sudden I had this really interesting conversation which ended up as an argument with one of my oldest and closest friends and got to know so many flaws about me which i thought i never had.

This is the thing about friends.. "A good friend will tell you whats the matter with you in a minute. He may not seem to be such a good friend after telling."

another thing about friends " Never explain - your friends dont need it and your enemies wont believe you anyway"

Thats the problem with criticism. Till the time he/she tells you the sugar coated words he's ur best friend but one bad thing about you and he's no more your best friend.

So criticism is often very difficult to take in your stride.

Specially for someone who's never had it before and specially from someone who's never ever told anything against you.

It hurts. It makes you think. It disturbs you like crazy. But again my favorite quote comes handy in stress situations "Whatever happens, happens for a reason"

So may be this might strengthen the bond or it might make me look at myself and think where am i going wrong but it was a good change. You need to hear something like that to do some introspection but not very often.

So criticize all you want but make sure you dont hurt the person. Tell him whats wrong but give him a reason why is it wrong. Tell him the bad points but also tell him why he is good enough to have a discussion. After all you are harsh and you are sensitive both with people you care the most. So its never too late to criticize and its never too late to change for GOOD.

Breaking Up. Simplified.

Breaking up is such a headache isnt it. Whether you are too desperate to break up with someone or you are so close to the person that breaking up is gona hurt you even more but then you got to do what you got to do.

Breaking up in the correct way is always difficult. The right words to choose, the correct tone, waiting for the perfect situation , forcing that situation to arrive so you land up in some petty fight and swoop in with your break up line the same way you swooped in with your pick up line the first time you met that person.

It has to be taken care that you are not mean, you dont hurt your gf/bf and also make sure at the same time that he/she was the reason of the break up and not you and you were only forced into it.

Keeping all this aside i just came across a cool advertisement which shows the new age break up.

Its such a tension free no load no stress chilled out break up ever seen.

Have a look.

I cant help but watch the ad everytime it comes during those IPL breaks and smile everytime and wonder if only life would have been so simple. The couple are so into each other a few seconds before and immediately after that comes the break up line " You dont love me anymore"

I love the acting by the cute girl in the advertisement. The initial innocent surprise and then the self realization expression after giving the break up line a lil thought and then deciding to be "freinds" only to "move on" in split second.

The Universe loves speed so dont second doubt when in doubt. So much time is wasted in breaking up and the moving on. If only universally this could be the norm acceptable by every couple half the emotinal atyachaar is already woosh and gone!!

Some Standard Break Up lines

1.The Reversal - " Its not you, Its me. You are just the best person anyone can get. I dont deserve you."

2.The Forced Fight- " You know what pisses me off the most about you. This fuckin attitude of yours. You think I cant survive without you."

3.The Self Sacrifice Suicidal - "Well if you're so mad at me why dont you just dump me"

4.The Destiny's Storeroom - "If it is meant to be we will find each other again SOMEDAY. But for now lets call it off"

5.The Trade-Off - " Our relationship hasnt been good for a while now. I think we shall take a break and see other people"

6.The Boredom Syndrome - "There is no spark, no spice no connection left between us. I guess what we had between us was just plain infatuation"

MOVE ON Man..!!

No LOVE No SEX Just DHOKHA!!

After experimenting several times with his kid bro , Ekta Kapoor finally tried something out of the box. Dibakar Banerjee of "Khosla and Ghosla" and national award winner "Oye Lucky,Lucky Oye" came up with a new concept of reality cinema.

And what came out with this new age experiment gone bad was an utterly rubbish, senseless movie called Love Sex Aur Dhokha.

I dont understand why other critics are going out of the way and praising this movie out and out.The movie has zero entertainment value. The only novelty factor of the movie is there are no actors. Its like watching a secret footage of never seen before videos.

The protagonist is the camera itself which they introduce as the star of the movie. It just says that how camera has become such an integral important and dangerous part of ur day to day lives where people are just willing to do anything to shove it up in our butts to get some unseen uncut footage of someone else's personal life.

Going by this theme it shows three different stories one personally shot , one supermarket footage and another a sting operation.The are three stories linked together and shot with 3 different cameras. a security cam, a video camera, and a secret sting camera. No written dialogues , the stories are believable but not entertaining at all. You get so bored that you want to pull your hair. Even the novelty of shooting with personal cameras wears you out after a little time.

As the title says the first story in the movie is about love.. then its all about SEX and then the DHOKHA..

However when you go to see love you'll find a lot of love in the movie but just when you start expecting SEX you are in for a big DHOKHA.. i guess the censor board has chopped and kept for their personal viewing. The movie isnt bold at all.

But i will tell you why the movie will rake in moolah at the box office.

Exceptional Marketing.

Totally Different Concept. So curiosity.

Catchy Title Track.

Ekta Kapoor has done enough publicity to create a buzz amongst media and youngsters about the movie. The appearance, the title, the market value of the movie is enough to attract audience to watch it once atleast.

On top of that the title track of the movie is just brilliant. Kailesh Kher gives his rustic feel to the song which makes you hum all day.

But the movie is just worthless.

Love Sex aur Dhokha Darling. Pass.

Ratings : 1.5/5

Is this LOuVE or Is it Infatuation?

Is this love or is it Infatuation?

This being a Valentines week I am trying to stick to the theme.

But i dont have and never had anything mushy to say about when it comes to LOuVE.

The very reason I am mentioning "love" AS "LOuVE" shows my lack of seriousness towards the underrated or for that matter over rated word.

Probably because I am too practical or too rational to the extent of being cynical when it comes to love.

So I am writing this basically to clear the misconception of most of you out there who think that

Love, Infatuation and Attraction are 3 different things.

One of these always gives birth to another.

I mean I have heard people falling in "love at first sight" and actually completing their quest for true love and on the other hand I have seen people taking their time to know each other and that time runs into years and years of unconditional commitment only to finally realize that it was just an INFATUATION. Ironic.

Why is there a confusion between these two highly over used and misinterpreted words?

I think everything starts with an infatuation.

Infatuation basically means "temporary" love of adolescent a foolish and usually extravagant passion love or admiration.

But that is what love is all about right? Foolish,immature

Many temporary infatuations make one long lasting love.

The very reason that draws you to a person makes you call, text, think, imagine, fantasize is because you are attracted to him or her due to some kind of infatuation.

You may be infatuated by looks, money, personality, kindness, humour.

So if you are not sure whether what you have between you and your partner is infatuation or love you will be wondering all your life.

And the only way you will come to know about it is if you eventually end up with him/her for the rest of your life and then you can tell the world with a sense of pride " oh! well it was unconditional pure love from the very start"

and god forbid if you break up tomorrow you will tell yourself " oh! well it was nothing but infatuation"

So if its infatuation there is nothing wrong it is meant to be like that.

And if its LOuVE trust me.. it is still a higher degree of INFATUATION.

What's In Store?

Who knows the answer to this question?

"Whats in Store?"

But what if you desperately want to find out "Whats in Store?" so that you can make some decisions based on that what do you do?.. just wait and watch till something magically appears and says this was in store or just take a risk go with the flow and discover what it was.

What will happen if you become impulsive and take a decision then and there and regret it later.. or what will happen if you try the safest road sit back watch and realized that you should have taken a decision long back. After all most of the troubles in life are because of saying "No" too soon or "Yes" too late.. or the other way round.

In the entire process of "worrying" about the future and thinking whats in store we are nothing but just stressing ourselves out.

Thinking seriously complicate things.

One thing that i learnt from THE SECRET or for that matter from movies like RANG DE BASANTI ,KAL HO NA HO .. or the PURSUIT OF HAPPYNESS.. was live for the moment you never know if this second might come back or no.There is no time like present.

People say take every day as it comes , I say take every fraction of a second as it comes.

I mean what do you mean when you say " I cant really see a future in this line or in this relationship or in this career"

You are not supposed to see the FUTURE because then you will be GOD.

Life is too short so dont second guess dont doubt the universe loves SPEED.

This quote from Grey's Anatomy defines life

"At some point of time you have to make a decision. Boundaries dont keep others out they fence you in. Life is messy thats how we're made. So you can WASTE your life drawing lines or you can live your life crossing them. If you are willing to take a CHANCE the view from the other side is SPECTACULAR."

So do what makes you HAPPY now. Do what makes you feel at peace with yourself now. Just Do it Now!!

Easier said than done right because what will make me really happy right now is a good trip to goa with friends but what i want to do is study for my exam which is in the FUTURE. So never works all the time but you have to learn how to make it work.

And to end all this I would again like to quote Benjamin Franklin " One today is worth two tomorrows."

After all if it is meant to be it will be. True.

Mile Sur Mera Tumhara..

26th January, just another holiday right. Well, I woke up thinking that because the fact is even if you ask yourself right now what exactly happened on 26th January 1950 many will be clueless.

So we are celebrating our 60th day of being a republic nation when we decided that the public matter and not just a few handfuls and we finally announced that India is "to the people for the people and by the people".

SO i switched on our good old doordarshan channel to see some r-day parade just to find out that there is no visibility and the entire ground is full of sudden fog cloud cover. So to pass time they showed this 22 year old song "Mile sur mera tumhara toh sur bane humaara."

And it felt so nostalgic because there were times some 5-10 years ago when I used to wait for "mowgli" to start on doordarshan and always these songs used to come up.

the song THEN shot in 1988

That time I used to get irritated because i had to wait 5 mins more for my cartoon to start.

When i heard it today it felt awesome. After listening to the doordarshan i channel surfed and landed myself on ZOOM where it was playing the ZOOM version called "Phir mile sur"

Part 1 of today's version

Part 2 of 2010 "Phir mile Sur"

Oh the 5 minute doordarshan version is now a 18 minute ZOOM version and its bigger than ever.I absolutely loved the positive energy in the video.It is so well made with so many national icons coming together in one video which shows India's unity in diversity with so many dance and music forms and 28 states and even more number of languages singing in one tune and one line and yet everytime it sounds so different.

" Mile Sur mera tumhara toh sur bane humaara" my english translation would be..

" You Sing, I sing and we both have a SONG".. lol...

The best part of the video which got me goose bumps was when Salman Khan is there with a group of children with speaking and hearing disability where they convey the message of the song with sign language. Beautiful.

The song is peaceful and makes you feel so good and i bet once you listen to it.. you cant stop humming the tune all day.

Cheers to Tonight's Entertainment

Well, it’s been one year since I started blogging and it has been a wonderful experience. The very reason I started blogging was that when I look back at the things I’ve written 10 years down the line I feel good about it. It’s like a personal log on public domain. I liked the idea of blogging because I just couldn’t maintain a personal diary and blog was the thing for me which will keep me computer hooked and at the same time do something productive rather than updating statuses of facebook.

The inspiration came from some of my friends who used to maintain a blog and I really liked the idea behind it. You get motivated to rant even more when you get comments and people appreciate your writing.

My favorite area of writing was undoubtedly hindi movie reviews. I always wanted to write about movies and give them stars and my criticism like the newspapers.

So one year gone and 39 posts in 2009 some of them really silly some immature some debatable and some nice.

I had great pleasure in writing every single post and looking forward to people commenting on it , tracking how many people visit my blog every day gives me a new high but when I see my fellow bloggers they write actual quality matter.

So I still have a long way to go and lot to learn.Thank you for reading and keeping me motivated.

Some of my best picks of 2009 would be..

1.There is a sense of pleasure in mediocrity?
2.Ethical Rap
3.Zoadies!!
4.Freedom to me!!
5.3 Idiots
6.Pursuit of Happyness
7.Gibberish
8.Sea Link
9.I am 21 years old
10.Have you ever cross dressed?
11.Zoadies,Roadies.. same difference